Welcome to my newest story. This one is based off the song Rainy Day Man. Now I know that the song is for Makoto, but in this instance it truly relates to the story I've created about Mamoru and Usagi. Enjoy!

Usa

Also, to those of you who like Seiya, just cause I made him a complete jerk in this doesn't mean I don't like him. I just don't like the idea of him and Usagi together.

Rainy Day Man
By Usagi Carter
Last Revised: August 13, 2001
Rated: PG-13

Note: Alternate Universe!!
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~
When I think about the first time
I thought I found someone who cared for me
But things were not as they appeared to be
~

Usagi stood on the bridge and watched the couples walking around the lake and the couples in rowboats. Her heart ached so much. Today was the day, four years before, that he'd left her. She remembered their parting at Narita Airport like it was yesterday. She also remembered vividly the day he told her he was leaving.

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"Mamo-chan?" she asked as she entered her best friend's apartment. For three years they'd been the best of friends. Of course, that was after the first year of being mortal enemies. She knew, when she walked into the living room and saw the moving boxes, that something was terribly wrong.

"Usagi-chan, I'm in the bedroom," Mamoru's melodious voice called. Carefully, Usagi made her way back to his room.

"Mamo-chan, why did you call me over and why are there moving boxes in your front room?" she asked, her voice barely a whisper. Silently she waited for a response, praying it wasn't going to be the one she knew in her heart she was going to hear.

"Usa, sit down. There's something I have to tell you," Mamoru said as she hesitantly climbed on the bed that she'd spent many an afternoon on, napping after school before he got home to help her with her studies.

"What's wrong? You're acting more serious than usual and you're scaring me," she said intently. It took every bit of self-control she had not to burst into tears on the spot.

"I got a letter from Harvard University in the United States," he started.

"Mamo-chan, I'm not a baka, I know where it is. It's the school you've always dreamed of going to. What did the letter say?"

"I've been accepted to study there for four years," he spoke slowly and softly. Usagi stared at him in shock, disbelief and pride.

Swallowing the shock, disbelief and sudden hurt, she smiled. "When are you leaving?" she asked as tears gathered in her azure blue eyes. He could plainly see the pain that was flickering across those doe like eyes.

"In two weeks," he said as she stood up and walked to him.

"I'm proud of you and happy for you," she said as she threw her arms around his neck and hugged him with intensity.

"Usa," he started as she pulled away.

"I've got some stuff to do with Amy-chan for school this afternoon. I'll call you later," she spoke as she all but ran from the room, trying to hide the tears and sobs that wanted to escape. He watched her fall apart with every step she took.

"Gomen nasai Usako," he whispered to the silent room.
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She remembered she hadn't spoken to him much after that day until she saw him off at the airport. She recalled that scene all too well for her liking.

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She'd wanted to beg him to stay but hadn't because she knew this was his dream. She didn't want to hold him back, no matter how much she needed him.

"Usa-chan, that's my flight," he whispered into her ear as she stood by the window and watched the planes take off and land.

"I know Mamo-chan," she whispered back as he wrapped her in his arms for the last time.

"I promise, I'll write and call and visit when I can," he told her as she laid her arms on top of his.

"Oh Mamo-chan, what am I going to do without you? You've always been there to bail me out of trouble and protect me. Who's going to be there when I need advice at three a.m. or a shoulder to cry on when some boy breaks my heart?" she asked him softly as she turned to bury her head in his chest. He winced when she started to silently shake with the emotions tearing through her.

"You still have the girls and Motoki. This will be good for you. I'm not always going to be around and you need to learn to stand on your own. You'll be taking college entrance exams next year," he said as he pulled back to wipe the tears from her eyes. "Besides, you're a lot tougher than you give yourself credit for. I need to go."

"Be careful," she whispered dejectedly as he hugged her one last time before boarding the plane.
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'And I miss him more and more each day' she thought as she straightened. She could hear Seiya, Taiki, Yaten and all four of the girls coming down the path.

"Usagi!" Minako called out. Usagi shook her head at her friend's exuberant call and plastered on her famous smile, but Minako and the other girls saw right through it. "Usa?"

"Four years," Usagi whispered before Seiya came and kissed her forehead.

"Did you get a call this morning? Motoki was telling us he did," Raye said as she looked into her best friend's eyes - the tears that gathered there were a good indication to Usagi's answer.

"No," she replied to Raye's question. That one word snapped Minako, Makoto and Amy's heads to attention.

It was a well-known fact between the five girls that in the eight years Usagi and Mamoru had known one another, Usa had fallen in love with him. They also knew that she was with Seiya to try to forget she loved the man, who was like a brother to her, more than just as a brother.

"You know what they say, 'Out of sight, out of brain'," Minako said as she shrugged her shoulders.

"Mina-chan, it's 'Out of sight, out of mind', and in this case it's the exact opposite," Amy whispered, angered slightly that Minako would bring up the well-guarded secret in front of the three boys.

"Usa, are you going to come with the others to the concert we're performing tonight?" Taiki asked curiously.

"I don't think so. I'm not feeling well. In fact, I think I'm going to head home now, if you don't mind."

"Usako, let me walk you," Seiya said as the girls watched Usagi visibly flinch at the name. That was one of Mamoru's more affectionate nicknames for her and they knew Seiya called her it because it bugged her to have anyone but Mamoru call her it.

"That's okay. I'm capable of walking six blocks by myself," Usagi replied boldly as the seven of them watched her walk away.

~
Rainy day man
On your shoulder I cried
When my first brush with love
Left me shaking inside
Rainy day man
~

When Usagi arrived home, she ran straight to her room, ignoring her worried parents and brother. Slamming the door behind her, Usagi threw herself on her bed and buried her face in her pillows. Luna padded softly up to her and nuzzled her neck and cheek. "Oh Luna, I miss Mamo-chan so much!" Usagi cried as she cuddled the feline to her.

"Usagi-chan, may I come in?" Ikuko called from the other side of the door.

"Hai!" Usagi called as she curled into a ball on the bed.

"Sweetie, what's wrong?" Ikuko asked softly as she entered the room and sat on the bed, stroking Usagi's legs.

"I miss him Mama. He's been gone four years and he still hasn't come back to visit me. Besides, I've discovered that me going out with Seiya to forget I love him has only made me more aware there's a hole in my heart where his friendship and closeness was," Usagi cried as Ikuko pulled her into a hug.

"Usa, he called here after you left today," Ikuko said as tears of hurt gathered in Usagi's eyes. "He said he'd call back tonight to talk to you. Why don't you go to Crown and talk to Motoki."

Pulling back from her mother, with hope shining a bit brighter in her eyes, Usagi contemplated the visit for about five seconds. "You know what, I think I will," Usagi said as she bounded from the room.

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As Usagi was nearing the arcade, she had a sudden urge to walk through the park. 'My quiet time was interrupted earlier. Now's the perfect time to go' Usagi thought as she entered the somewhat deserted park.

While Usagi was walking through the park, she noticed a man was following her every move. Slightly upset, she headed for the exit so she could get to the arcade. Unfortunately, she took a wrong turn and ended up in a dead end. "Konnichi wa," the man said as Usagi swung around to face him. Memories of the night she had wanted to forget for some time now came rushing back.

"IIE!" Usagi screamed. Her voice carried throughout the park. As the man approached her he was hit from behind. Her attacker let out a string of curses but Usagi wasn't paying attention; someone had vaulted around him and made a grab for her, scaring her. Usagi, thinking it was someone out to hurt her, tried fighting back until the familiar scent of Cherry Blossoms over road the fear and she opened her eyes to find Raye standing next to her.

"Usa daijobu?" Raye asked, terrified.

"H-hai," Usagi replied before one of the two men fighting cursed and one fell. Usagi and Raye saw Usagi's attacker on the ground and a familiar figure standing over him, a knife deeply rooted in hi chest.

"Usa," he whispered before he dropped with a thud.

"MAMO-CHAN!" Usagi screamed when she realized who he was.

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Mamoru slowly opened his eyes and found himself in a hospital room. 'USA!' his mind yelled, remembering the events that happened before he passed out. He carefully looked around the room, noting it was a normal one. At least that was his first thought until he saw the twin golden odangos next to his right arm. 'Usako' he thought with a surge of happiness. Carefully he reached out and touched her cheek, causing her to stir.

"You're awake!" Usagi called as she jumped on the bed and threw her arms around his neck to hug him, avoiding the injury on his chest.

"Konnichi wa Usa-chan," he said as he wrapped his arms around her.

"Oh Mamo-chan, you scared me silly! What did you think you were doing?"

"Raye and I met up in the park. She said you weren't doing too well so we decided to come visit. Next thing I know I heard you scream," he said into her hair. "Raye is okay, isn't she?"

"She's fine, stubborn as always, but fine. Question is, are you alright?"

"I'll live. Where were you going?"

"Crown. I wanted a walk in the park first," Usagi said before she changed the subject. "The doctor said you could go home tomorrow if you woke up today."

"How long have I been out of it?" Mamoru asked cautiously.

"Three days. They weren't sure if you'd ever wake up," she whispered as tears once again began to leak from her once bright eyes. Mamoru saw the tears and gently pulled her against his chest, attempting to comfort her. "Mamo-chan I was so scared you'd never come back to me," she cried out softly. He knew her words had a double meaning. How many nights had he laid awake thinking about her? Truth was, he loved her more than a best friend should.

"I told you I'd come back to visit," he whispered.

"That was four years ago," she cried as he held her tighter.

Desperately wanting her to calm down, Mamoru quickly changed the subject. "So, Motoki-san tells me you've got a new boyfriend." Usagi sat up and shrugged her shoulders.

"Things have cooled off between us. He's more into the relationship than I am," Usagi said as she looked to the window.

"Motoki also tells me you've got a fascination with Britney Spears," Mamoru teased.

"She's everything I'm not," Usagi whispered. Mamoru cringed when he heard what she said. He knew Usagi had low self-esteem but he hadn't known how badly.

"You're awake I see," a husky voice said from the doorway. Both Usagi and Mamoru turned to see who it was. Mamoru didn't recognize him but one look at Usagi told him she did.

"Seiya-chan, meet Chiba Mamoru," Usagi said softly, making Mamoru wince at the sound of his given name on her lips. It had been almost eight years since the last time she'd called him by it.

"A pleasure to meet you Chiba-san."

"Mamoru-san, this is Kou Seiya of the music group The Three Lights," Usagi spoke softly. "And my boyfriend."

"Kou-san, nice to meet you," Mamoru said as he raised an eyebrow at the guy.

"Come along Usako. Our dinner date awaits," Seiya commanded.

"Mamoru-san, I'll come by tomorrow with Motoki and help get you out of here," Usagi said dully as she stood up, bowed to Mamoru, and then quietly followed Seiya out of the room. No flying tackle, no peck on the cheek, no emotion. She was a different person with Seiya around and that worried Mamoru more than anything ever had.

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Ever since I can remember
Just like a brother you've been strong and true
Always been the one to see me through
~

The next morning a cheerful Motoki and a somber Usagi entered Mamoru's hospital room. Mamoru was already dressed and ready to go. "Ohayo Mamoru!" Motoki called out.

"Ohayo Motoki, Usa-chan," Mamoru said as he sat in the wheelchair the nurse was at.

"Ohayo gozimashu Mamoru-san," Usagi said as she bowed to him. She was the same as before. Motoki exchanged glances with Mamoru.

"Ready?" Motoki asked. Mamoru nodded and they were on their way.

When the trio got to Mamoru's apartment, Usagi went and made tea while the boys sat in the living room. "Motoki, tell me about Kou Seiya."

"There's not much to tell. He's a famous singer who's got the hots for our Usa-chan. Why?"

"Because. She didn't start acting like this till he came to get her yesterday. When she left there was no flying tackle, no peck on the cheek. I'm worried. She's never been this upset before."

"Not entirely true. She locked herself in her room for almost a full week after you left. Raye and Makoto had to practically drag her to the park for fresh air. Personally, I don't like him. He's probably the reason she's acting formal with you. Usagi's only guy friends anymore are the girls' boyfriends. She's not even friends with his brothers. He's very demanding of her. The girls told me she's cut back on how much time she spends with him so she can be alone. Try to cheer her up Mamoru," Motoki finished as Usagi brought out the tea. "Well, look at the time. I've got a hot date tonight with Reika. Have fun."

"The last time I stood on that balcony was the night before you left," Usagi said as she stared at the sliding glass door.

"Usa, what did he say to you last night to make you act this way with me. You didn't even give me an Usagi-flying-tackle-hug when you left yesterday," Mamoru said as he pulled her to sit next to him on the couch.

"Mamo-chan, he's making me choose, him or you," she whispered softly as she turned her gaze from him.

"I see. You're having trouble choosing, aren't you?"

"He knows a secret of mine, one that could ruin my life," she whispered as she leaned against him, feeling her strength return with his closeness. No one had been more affected by his absence then she.

"What do you mean?"

"Something happened after you left. I never told you and Seiya found out by accident. I loved him at first," she spoke as she closed her eyes and leaned her head on his shoulder.

"And now you're not sure?" Mamoru asked, willing her silently to break this wall between them.

"I love someone else. I'm positive I don't love Seiya. He knows that and who the other person is. He's not too happy with me."

"He's blackmailing you, isn't he?"

"Hai. It shouldn't bother me because Makoto said she'd snap him in half for me but I don't want this secret getting out."

"What's the secret Usako? You've never hidden anything from me," Mamoru asked, urging her to get it off her chest.

"I can't." Two words that made Mamoru sick to his stomach.

"Why not?"

"Believe me, Mamo-chan, if I could I would tell you. I don't want you to think different of me. I told Raye I'd drop by the temple at three. I'll call you later," she said as she pecked him on the cheek and went to leave.

"Fine by me, Usagi-san," Mamoru spoke, letting her know his walls were back up. The tears built in her eyes as she rushed out the door, it slamming forcefully behind her. Mamoru sat on the couch silently cursing at himself. He just ruined eight years of hard work on both their parts.

~
Rainy day man
You're much more than a friend
I would give anything
Just to see you again
Rainy day man
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"Usa, we know something's wrong. Talk to us," Amy's voice commanded with hurt, breaking the silence everyone had gone into as they worked on cleaning the temple grounds. The others stopped dead in their tracks at the sound of Amy's voice.

"Mamo-chan called me Usagi-san."

"So? You told me you called him Mamoru-san in front of Seiya. What's the difference?" Minako asked softly.

"No one else was in the room. He's mad because I wouldn't tell him about my secret. He also knows about last night."

"Does he know that Seiya knows?" Makoto asked, worry in her gaze and lacing her words.

"Hai. I couldn't tell the man I love what his archrival knows by accident!" Usagi screamed in frustration as she threw the rake she was using across the yard. The others gathered her into a group hug.

"Konnichi wa minna," Yaten said as the three boys popped up unexpectedly.

"You're a little late to be helping us," Raye growled.

"We don't do yard work," Seiya snickered. He made a move toward Usagi and the girls instinctively moved between them.

"Then don't set foot past the praying grounds of my temple," Raye shot back. She was ready for anything Seiya was about to do.

"Say the word Usa, and I snap him like a twig," Makoto said slowly, cracking her knuckles and taking a fighting stance.

"Don't Mako-chan. What do you want Seiya?" Usagi asked sharply as she stood up to him.

"I want you, entirely. He doesn't love you. He couldn't give you what you need. Besides, if he ever finds out your little secret he'll never want to be near you again. No man ever would but me."

"Don't you ever talk to her like that again," a very familiar voice growled at Seiya. The girls and Taiki and Yaten turned to the owner of the voice.

"Chiba-san, this does not concerns you," Seiya barked at Mamoru.

"If it concerns Usako, it most definitely concerns me. I watched her turn into a different person yesterday because of you. I won't watch her throw away her life because you know some deep, dark secret she's keeping from one of her best friends. Either you stop harassing her or I beat you to a pulp!"

"He means it too!" Minako chirped, letting the others know how serious it had just gotten.

"Say the word Usa, and Mamoru-san and I make him mulch," Mako said as Usagi shook her head no.

"Iie. Mamo-chan, go back to your apartment. I'll meet you there in twenty-five minutes. I have a lot to tell you," Usagi commanded. Mamoru nodded before inclining his head toward the girls in a good-bye gesture.

"Usa?" Raye asked.

"I'm going to tell him everything. No more hiding. Seiya, we're through. I can't put up with you anymore. If you still want to be friends then we will be but my heart is his. It's about time he learned the truth."

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"Usa?" Mamoru asked when she showed up on his doorstep with a gym bag and pillow in tow.

"I'm spending the night. I told my mom where I was. We've got a lot to talk about. It's going to take all night," she said as he moved to allow her to enter.

"We'll sleep in the living room. Make yourself comfortable. I ordered pizza and it's in the kitchen," Mamoru spoke as she went to unpack.

Ten minutes later, pizza finished, they sat next to each other in front of his couch. "Usa," Mamoru started before she held up her hand.

"Let me get through all of it before you say anything," Usagi started. He nodded and sat silently as she spun the tale of the last four years.

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Usagi had just begun her first year at university. She Minako, Makoto, and Amy decided to all move into an apartment together near the campus.

One night, during an overnighter to study for first semester finals, Usagi decided to go get a coffee and some snacks from a store a block away. On her way to the store, she was kidnapped. The man assaulted Usagi physically and sexually. Then threw her in an ally and left her for dead. Someone found her and took her to the hospital where her parents and friends were waiting.

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"I ended up pregnant from him raping me. I miscarried at five months. They never caught him. It's been two years since and I remember it like yesterday. Mama says while they had me sedated at the hospital, I kept calling out for you. Motoki was in Osaka and none of the girls had your number. I didn't want you to even know when I found out I was pregnant. I didn't want you to look at me differently," Usagi finished, her body numb as Mamoru pulled her against him.

"Usako, you should have called me. I would have come on the first available, flight," Mamoru scolded.

"I didn't want your pity. You told me when you left, this was a lesson in strength for me," Usagi started as Mamoru glared at her.

"Usako, you wanted me here. You needed me. You should have called. Did they ever catch him?"

"Iie. He disappeared into thin air. Mamo-chan, there's a reason why I told you this."

"What?" he asked softly as he gazed into her eyes.

"I didn't want any secrets between us when I tell you I'm in love with you and that Seiya's history," she whispered softly as Mamoru looked at her in shock.

"Usa?"

"I didn't realize how much I loved you until you were gone," Usagi whispered as she stared deep into his eyes. She saw his answer to her confession before he voiced it.

"Usako, aishiteru," Mamoru whispered as tears sprang to life in her eyes. She smiled and leaned toward him. He took her face in his hands and angled his head just right as they closed their eyes and enjoyed their first real kiss together.

"Oh Mamo-chan," Usagi said in pure bliss as they parted. Mamoru wrapped his arms around her and held her to his body. The way they were felt right to both of them.

~
Always been the one to see me through

Rainy day man
On your shoulder I cried
When my first brush with love
Left me shaking inside

Rainy day man you're much more than a friend
I would give anything
Just to see you once again
~

"Mamo-chan?" Usagi started as they cuddled together on his couch and watched the rain come down lightly on the balcony.

"Hmm?"

"Are you home for good?"

"Hai. Usa, look outside," Mamoru started as they returned their gazes to the balcony. It was pouring now, making the apartment seem like a warm and safe place to be.

"Mamo-chan?"

"Hmm?"

"Will you always be my rainy day man?"

"Hai," Mamoru whispered as he sealed his promise with an earth shattering, heart-shaking kiss.

~
Rainy day man
Rainy day man
Rainy day man
Rainy day man
~

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